Calling All Doulas

An invitation and a giveaway!

A doula is a labor attendant; someone who offers support through the process of labor and delivery.  Doulas provide comfort techniques, they can often prevent unnecessary interventions, and when interventions do become necessary, they can help the mother continue to understand the process of her labor, stay in control and work through most side effects.  Doulas work in hospitals, birth centers, and in home births.  They do not replace midwives, nurses, or doctors, but offer the laboring mother much more personal care than these birth professionals can offer.  Mothers find doulas often by word of mouth, or by websites that offer doula directories.  Doulas are generally trained and prepared to work in birth situations in which the outcome is expected to be a live baby.

I am a doula.  I am also an adoption doula, and, more to the point, I am a pregnancy loss doula.

I used a great deal of my doula training and skills to create many aspects of this website.  It is extremely important to me that mothers feel validated through the process of loss, and that we are recognized as having children, real children, who have lived, have died, and who need to be born.  Because doulas have such experience with labor, I felt that it would serve a tremendous benefit to include doulas in this website, as it gives the pregnancy loss mom the sense of connection to other mothers, to other labor experiences.  I wrote out a handbook, providing an outline of how I see pregnancy loss support to be necessary, and set out to find doulas willing to see this need in the way that I do.

In the process, I have discovered that there are doulas everywhere who have longed to offer this sort of support, some already offering it, and some wanting to learn more.  We have created an online group, where we get the chance to come together and offer each other encouragement and information.  We are trained in labor support, and we each have a heart to provide love, compassion and validation to any mother experiencing the miscarriage or the stillbirth of her baby.

To recognize the importance of pregnancy loss doula support, Bg&Co of New York generously donated a beautiful designer birthing gown to stillbirthday.

When a mother plans to deliver her stillborn baby, she recognizes that the process from the birth to the funeral, will be the one and only family reunion that will include the physical presence of her baby.  Trying to find comfort during the labor is extremely challenging.  After the birth, the couple often include many extended family members to come and enjoy the time with the baby, holding the baby, singing, talking, bathing, photographing the baby, whether the baby is alive for a short time or has already died.

After what is likely an extremely overwhelming labor, the mom most often tries to look and feel as refreshed as she possibly can, to try to capture memories with the family that hold all of her feelings…her grief, her sadness, but also her love and delight over her baby.  With all of these factors combined, it is often overlooked but is important that the mom feel pleased with her appearance.  Having a lovely designer gown that offers full cover, has a designer feel, and is lovely to wear, can make any mom in labor feel refreshed and confident in her appearance.  I suggest that every doula providing pregnancy loss support create fundraising in their communities to raise funds to have at least one of these gowns available at all times, and I would suggest to any mom preparing for her stillbirth and looking to find ways to make the event of meeting her baby more personal to purchase one of these lovely birthing gowns.  Again, it’s also another validating experience, having a real birthing gown to deliver your very real baby.

In addition to having doulas listed here at stillbirthday from every state, I am pleased to announce that we also have doulas listed here internationally!  Doulas everywhere are realizing the need to offer support through pregnancy loss.

One doula listed here was randomly selected to win the gown donated by Bg&Co.

I want to tell each of the doulas listed here that I am extremely thankful to each of you for joining me in this effort of providing support through such an important time.

The doula selected is Becca Pencak, offering pregnancy loss support in Illinois.

Video Memorials

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Spoiler List of Books and Movies

This is a “spoiler” list of books, movies, and other media which reference pregnancy & infant loss.

 

This is not to be mistaken for our list of actual support books and resources for pregnancy and infant loss.

 

Having this list can be valuable to show that Hollywood and others in fact do address loss, it can help us determine which ways loss is demonstrated respectfully and which ways it is demonstrated offensively, and it can help to shield us if we would like to be prevented from seeing a depiction of pregnancy/infant loss while enjoying a book or movie.  A stillbirthday mother also suggested viewing the database “Does the Dog Die?”

Please leave comments below, to add to the list (including a link might be helpful too, so we can determine which ones, if there is more than one movie with the same title), and please tell us which titles reference loss respectfully, and which ones reference loss offensively.

Books

  • The Help
  • Handle with Care
  • The Prodigal Summer
  • Where the Sidewalk Ends (“Dreadful” poem)
  • Big Love (secondary infertility)
  • What Alice Forgot

Movies

  • Return to Zero (stillbirthday is in the end credits, just above NILMDTS!)
  • This is Our Time (by the makers of Fireproof and Courageous)
  • Marley and Me
  • Away We Go
  • A Walk in the Clouds
  • Lorenzo’s Oil (childhood diagnosis)
  • Battle in Seattle
  • Then She Found Me (adoption)
  • Seven Pounds
  • The Time Traveler’s Wife
  • The Hand that Rocks the Cradle
  • Maybe Baby
  • Secret Window
  • Karate Kid
  • Benjamin Button
  • Finding Nemo (Disney/Pixar) (depicts secondary/additional trauma)
  • Up (Disney/Pixar)
  • Astro Boy
  • Couple’s Retreat
  • Revolutionary Road
  • Facing the Giants (difficulty TTC, no loss)
  • Courageous
  • The Help
  • What to Expect When You’re Expecting
  • Cider House Rules (incest, elective abortion, cremation, orphanage)
  • The Way

Television

  • The Big C
  • Private Practice, season 5 finale
  • Call the Midwife (includes crisis births and infant death)
  • Season 2, Episode 6 of The Fosters

 

About Children’s Loss of Parents

  • All Dogs Go To Heaven
  • Angels in the Outfield
  • Cinderella
  • Sword in the Stone
  • Because of Windixie

 

 

 

Help Spread the Word

This opportunity involves helping to spread the word about this website.

The resources and places that need to know about stillbirthday include:

  • OBs
  • Ultrasound Techs (in doctor offices and in private practices, such as 3D and 4D facilities)
  • Nurses (in doctor offices, and in maternity units in hospitals)
  • Midwives/Birth Centers
  • Grief Counselors/Pastors
  • Radio Stations
  • Newspapers
  • Researchers in loss and/or grief

 

We have great resources you can share such as our printable resources for medical staff found at our doula qualifications page,

 

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Birth Encouragement

These quotes and verses serve to bring encouragement to you as you prepare for the birth of your baby.  Because pregnancy loss is still birth, these affirmations and encouragements are borrowed from childbirth websites (sources at end) and in fact are more fitting here than anywhere else.

As for you, be strong and courageous, for your work will be rewarded. ~ 2 Chronicles 15:7

”If I don’t know my options, I don’t have any.” ~ Diana Korte

God arms me with strength, and he makes my way perfect. ~ Psalm 18:32

“There is a secret in our culture, and it’s not that birth is painful. It’s that women are strong.” ~ Laura Stavoe Harm

The Lord will fight for you… ~Exodus 14:14a

“It seems that many health professionals involved in antenatal care have not realized that one of their roles should be to protect the emotional state of pregnant women.” ~Michel Odent, M.D.

God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in time of trouble.  ~ Psalm 46:1

“The effort to separate the physical experience of childbirth from the mental, emotional and spiritual aspects of this event has served to disempower and violate women.” ~Mary Rucklos Hampton

The Lord your God is with you wherever you go.  ~Joshua 1:9

“Fear can be overcome only by Faith.” ~Grantly Dick-Read, M.D.

Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love.  ~Lamentations 3:44

 

Verses borrowed from: Scriptures for Childbirth

Quotes borrowed from: Birth Without Fear

Never Forgotten

Told by: Rachel

My first daughter was so easy to conceive, and while she gave me all the typical aches and pains, she was such a breeze to carry. I guess being pregnant with her made me take for granted that everything would be that easy from then on.  Two and a half years later my husband and I decided we were ready for another child and my Mirena was removed. My cycle came like clock work every 30 days for the next five months. That November I started spotting brown mid cycle and it contiued for 10 days before I went in to the doc to see what was going on. I was told “congrats, you’re pregnant.” The doc guessed I was 8-10 weeks based on my uterus size and sent for an ultrasound. It took a couple weeks of rollercoaster rides of guessing if I was too early to see baby, having a miscarriage, or having an ectopic before we finally were told that I was having a miscarriage. It was very difficult for me but I was able to come to terms with it. Fast forward two years and we still have not been able to conceive.

It was so heartbreaking for me and for my husband. Finally we were blessed with a wonderful little girl who is now almost three years old. We knew that with my troubles conceiving my youngest that we should not use any birthcontrol and let nature take it’s course. I nursed until my daughter self weaned at 13 months old. I figured I would have troubles getting pregnant while she was nursing, but even months after she weaned my cycles were 46-89 days long. I struggled with feelings of inadequacy over taking Clomid month after month and still no baby. I felt like I was not a “real woman” because I could not conceive a child. Finally 7 cycles of Clomid later, right after burying my father in law, we found out we were pregnant. I had a bad feeling from the first postivie pregnancy test, but allowed myself to feel hope and excitement with each symptom and each day that passed.

At 7 weeks we saw our little one’s heart beating strong and fell even more in love. Still in the back of my mind something just was not right. I ended up in the ER with a small amount of spotting and cervical pains. The doc treated me as if I were a turkey he was trying to stuff and left me sitting there crying in pain. Finally the on call OB came and did a quick scan to confirm the baby had a heart beat. The doc never measured the heartbeat, or the baby, and then the ER sent me on my way feeling as if no questions were answered.  I called my OB to try and be seen earlier than 12 weeks and was blown off. I called when I felt like I was dilating and again was blown off. Things just did not feel right and no one would listen. I started spotting one night and went in to the ER. I thought for sure I would be told I needed a cerclage or be put on bedrest. The tech doing the scan made small talk and seemed happy and upbeat, but never let me see the screen. I figured it was normal and thought nothing of it. Two hours later the ER doc came in and asked me if anyone had given me the results of my scan. I told him no, of course not, he was the only one who was allowed to give them to us. Then, as if he was telling me the sky was blue, he announced I had a miscarriage.

My world started spinning. Nothing made sense. It was like an out of body experience. Miscarriage? How could that be? My baby had a heartbeat just a few weeks before that. My husband asked if the baby would pass on its own or if we needed a procedure to help it pass. I was so confused at that point, I knew I had not physically passed my baby, the sac, placenta, blood or anything. There was no way the little amount of spotting I had, had been a miscarriage. The doc must be wrong. So I asked him how I had a miscarriage when I never lost the baby. Then it clicked, my baby was dead, but still inside me. I asked him if he meant my baby was dead, but still inside me of me. He nodded his head but said nothing. I asked for how long, how, and why. He only said I do not know. He asked if we had any more questions, but his tone clearly stated he could not care less and was hoping we said no.

I started panicking, screaming, crying, throwing things. I was having a breakdown. I just kept screaming “my baby, my baby no not my baby!”

The nurse came in and tried to console me. She answered questions as best as she could, hugged me and offered me resources for grief counseling. I was there physically, but mentally I had checked out. It was almost like an out of body experience.  I was so angry. How could this happen? Why? Why MY baby? Why when I had to struggle for years to conceive and had already had three miscarriages in my life did I have to lose another baby? This baby had lived. This baby had a heart beat. I saw it. I watched my perfect little baby inside my body with a strong healthy beating heart. I had to wait 2 days to reach my doctor and ended up going to what was supposed to be my first prenatal check up, to confirm that my baby was in fact still.

The midwife let me see the baby. She let me have a picture. She answered my questions as best as she could. She had to call in the OB because protocol stated a second person had to confirm before anything could be done to help the physical passing of the baby. The OB was unfeeling and more than once referred to my history of miscarriages as “bad luck” even though no testing had been done. She presrcibed me  some pills to help me pass the baby. I was 12 weeks pregnant when I took the pills. It was not long after the pills were inserted that I got crampy, very crampy and passed a lot of clots. One clot was so large that I thought it might actually be the baby. When I leaned over the toilet to look, my youngest daughter ran in and flushed the toilet. She thought she was helping mommy. I cried and cried because I thought she flushed the baby.

I laid down and cried and suddenly felt a gush. I ran to the bathroom and found my water had broke. I thought it was strange that I would pass the baby and THEN my water would break. I sat on the toilet again, cramping horribly and passed a lot more clots and tissue. I then looked in the toilet and found THERE was my baby, whole, tiny and perfect. I did not even think twice, I fished the tiny little body, no more than an inch and a half to two inches long out of the toilet. I laid it on a paper towel and bawled. My beautiful little baby had eyes, arms, legs and though alien like, my baby was perfect. Some think it is strange, but I took pictures of my baby. I wanted to remember him or her forever just as tiny and perfect as he or she was.

It has been 6 and a half months since my miscarriage. I took a round of Clomid a month after my miscarriage not sure if I was ready to try again or not. I was blessed with another chance that first cycle after losing my angel. I am now 24 weeks pregnant with our first little boy. This pregnancy has been rough for me. We had a threatened miscarraige early on and I have lived in fear of losing another child. So far everything is perfect and Baby Matthew is measuring ahead and wiggling up a storm. I feel a lot of guilt because while I am eternally grateful to be carrying a healthy little boy, I still grieve over, and miss my angel baby. I still cry. The 19th of August is the date my angel baby was due. This week is increasingly hard because I know that I should be holding a perfect little baby right now, but instead I am 16 weeks away from my due date with Baby Matthew. I know how blessed I am but it does not stop the pain of losing the perfect little life I carried inside of me. My husband wonders when I will be able to get passed the loss. I wonder when he will realize you never truly get passed losing a child, born or unborn.

“Pregnancy Loss” Doula Handbook

If you have not taken our Birth & Bereavement Doula training but want an introduction to understanding the importance in providing such support, this handbook will be valuable to you.

 

It is highly recommended as a birth support of any level (and particularly doulas with little or no pregnancy & infant loss experience), to purchase the Pregnancy Loss Doula Handbook.  The Pregnancy Loss Doula Handbook provides doulas with essential recommendations and information on how to best support families experiencing pregnancy and infant loss.  The Handbook covers:

  • types of support and personal safety.
  • support prior to the birth.
  • support during the birth in an early, at-home miscarriage.
  • support during the birth in a medically assisted miscarriage.
  • support during the birth in a planned at-home stillbirth.
  • support during the birth in a hospital stillbirth.
  • support following the loss.
  • compassion fatigue and peer support information.
  • financial information.

NEW! PRINT VERSION!

We now offer the Handbook in two formats.  The original was first created in 2011 and is in a PDF format.  The new actual book version has a better name and even more content!  If you’d like the printed copy mailed to you, it contains all  of the above information, plus these bonus subjects:

  • history of doula
  • the most frequently visited pages from stillbirthday: types of loss, birth methods, birth plans, farewell celebrations
  • self care
  • foundation for the SBD workshops

We don’t offer tracking on international orders to keep cost to a realistic minimum.

Get your print version here:

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You do not need to order the handbook if you are taking Stillbirthday’s Birth & Bereavement Doula training.  Stillbirthday provides the most comprehensive birth & bereavement training, applicable for birth attendants of all levels.  It is affordable, available entirely online, and comes with valuable benefits.  Join the SBD global  birth & bereavement team!

The Pregnancy Loss Doula Handbook is available in an easy-to-download format, for only $15.  All proceeds go to Christian Childbirth Services LLC to support stillbirthday.info.  Click the yellow button to see the stillbirthday shop and place your order.  Download is not automatic – it is sent to you as soon as I receive your payment (within 24 hours).

And don’t forget to list your services to be added to stillbirthday!

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The Pregnancy Loss Doula Handbook was created at the original publication of stillbirthday on August 1, 2011.  Because the founder of stillbirthday had been a birth doula for nearly 10 years, the lens through which the handbook was originally created was to provide exposure and awareness of pregnancy loss to those birth doulas and birth midwives who weren’t interested in committing to the full online credentialing program.

Since this first publication, stillbirthday has continued to provide this opportunity, however we have continued to provide training to individuals with little or no previous professional birth support experience or training, and so this has allowed us to fully open the name in the updated version of the handbook to reflect the beautifully inclusive collective of persons who simply have a heart to learn more about supporting families in the spaces where birth & bereavement meet.

Whether you call it a pregnancy loss, or an infant loss, or both, we at stillbirthday can meet you where you are in terminology but desire to offer to you this truth:

a pregnancy loss is still a birthday

The SBD® Doula provides support to families experiencing birth in any trimester and in any outcome.

Here at stillbirthday.info, you can learn about the SBD® Doula.